Monday 24 March 2014

Dr. Safia: How I came from darkness into light

A meeting with Dr. Safia previously known as Suraj Shalini

Asma Zaat ul Fauzain: 

Assalaam o alaikum wa Rehmat Ullah Alaih

Dr. Safia: Waalaikum Assalaam Wa Rehmat Ullah

Asma: 

Dr. Sahiba, Abba called from Ajmer he told me that you had called and that i should call you up and interview you. You must be aware that we have been doing Da'wah through our Urdu publication called Armughan and that we publish accounts of people who have recently come into the fold of Islam, Abba wanted to publish your story in the 2005 issue.



Dr. Safia: 

Actually i have been trying to call Maulana Sahib for the past 15 days. I had his UP and Delhi numbers, but i seem to have misplaced them. Yesterday, by coincidence when i called him, it went through. He gave me his Delhi home number and told me to call you and meet up with you as the magazine had to be sent to the press and only a few days were left.
Asma Zaat ul Fauzain: Thanks, please first introduce yourself.



Dr. Safia: 

Previously i was called Suraj Shalini. I was born on 24th September, 1978 in a place called Mohan Lal Ganj near Lucknow to a Brahmin family. My father, K.A. Sharma was a Cardiologist and a professor. He stayed affiliated with The Panth Hospital for quite some time. For the last 10 years he has been working near Lucknow where he got a transfer after a lot of strife as it was near our home. My mother is a housewife. My father is a very conservative and a firm believer in eastern values therefore he married my mother instead of a doctor. I have two older brothers, one is a reader at Benaras University and the other is an Engineer at BHL. I passed Intermediate of Science, Biology with first Division and then passed the PMT entrance exam. I did my MBBS from Lucknow Medical College and got my MD from Maulana Azad Medical in Delhi. I chose cardiology to fulfill my fathers' dream of being in the same discipline as him. I am doing my DM from AIMS and also working as a cardiologist in the AIMS cardiology department. About one year, six months, four days and two hours ago, on Thursday 20th May, 2004, 11:00 am i accepted Islam as my faith and religion at the hands of your father.


Asma Zaat ul Fauzain: 

Please tell us of the circumstances that led to you accepting Islam in detail.

Dr. Safia:


 It was June 2003 and i was on duty at the children's Intensive Care Cardiology Unit, when i saw that a Maulana Sahib had come see a child from Haryana. There was another  child over there who had only one attendant. The mother of the child from Haryana asked Maulana Sahib to pray for him and to bless him. The mother of the other child also requested Maulana Sahib to do the same for her son. Like this all the mothers one by one asked Maulana Sahib to pray for their child and to blow on them too. Soon Maulana Sahib had blowed on six children one by one. It was time for Dr. Tayagi, the department head to make his rounds.  I asked Maulana Sahib who it was that he was visiting? That you are going to first one patient and then to the other and blowing on them. That this is an ICCU and there is danger of infection over here. Maulana Sahib said that i am here for all these patients. That our elders have taught us that all humanity has descended from the same set of parents. Therefore, i have a blood relationship with all the patients admitted to this ward. Our Owner who has created us, doesn't like disunity amongst His creation, and whatever i am reciting and blowing on these kids is His Word, that He has said all this in His Word and He sent His true Word as the hands of Prophet Ibrahim (Abraham, PBUH), & Ibrahim (PBUH) is the person after whom the Brahmins call themselves Brahmin. When i fall ill, it is that Creator of ours who cures us and heals us. You must be seeing yourself that according to your capacity, you prescribe the best medication under the circumstances to your patient and after taking that medication the patient first is cured and then he dies, and sometimes you make a mistake whilst treating him and he gets well. I had heard something like this for the first time in my life and this idea sounded unique to me. Last week six children had died in our ward, out of these four had been incredibly beautiful and after staying for two weeks in the ward I had also become emotionally attached to them, so when they died I was extremely depressed. I wanted to talk to Maulana Sahib a little more as listening to him, i had felt peace wash over me. I invited him into my cabin and he promptly accepted my invitation, he said to me that i was like his younger sister or his children and have invited him with respect and love. My request is that if a child comes into your ward, please consider him your younger brother or your child, and take the pain of their disease exactly as you would a loved ones. The Creator has given you such a great opportunity to be a source of solace and help to his bereaved  and diseased creation. You must have an idea that any mother whose child is so ill that he is in an ICCU of a government hospital, then you can be certain that she belongs to a poor family who has no other support in this life. If you show even a little sympathy and kindness to such people, then from the depths of their soul they pray for you and ask God to bless you. Then Maulana Sahib asked me my name and said, "Dr. Shalini! you are my blood sister, and that is why i am advising you with an intensity akin to a dying person advising his children that you consider  the service of these poor dying children and their parents as your biggest worship. Even in the most difficult tapasya won't you find the return that you will by helping and consoling someone going through the pain of losing their child.

I thanked Maulana Sahib profusely and promised him that I will try my level best to do as he had requested. After that Maulana Sahib left. After my rounds, i inquired of a parent of a child from Panipat as to who Maulana Sahib was, he replied that he is our hazrat jee, that he is a very good and a kind soul, at his behest thousands of Hindus have been brought into the fold of Islam. Maulana Sahibs conversation with me had had a profound effect upon and its effect stayed with me for a long time afterwards. One statement of his had moved me immensely, the one when he had declared that all the patients are my own and that our Creator doesn't like disunity amongst his creation. I also felt that Maulana Sahibs prayers had somehow helped the patients and that nearly all of them who had been prayed for my him had recuperated and left the ward on their own two feet. 

But as time passed by, i forgot all about it and went about my life as if this had never happened. In the Maulana Azad Medical College, i had a room partner by the name of Dr. Reena Saigol, she was doing an MS in gynaecology and later on went on to get a job at Dr. Safdar Jung Hospital's gynae department. We became good friends during this time. One day she invited me for lunch, after which we got down to talking about everything and nothing in particular. There was a Muslim maid in her home who also used to cook for her. I asked her why she had kept a Muslim cook in her house? Couldn't you have found a Hindu? She replied that she is a very good person and very  honest, so many times my purse fell down or was forgotten by me, but she never stole and returned it to me intact. Somehow from this point onwards our conversation turned towards Muslims. Dr. Reena said that I have noticed that people have been converting to Islam in droves specially since our media has started spreading anti Muslim propaganda and has been trying to give a rise to anti Muslim sentiment in the country.  So many accomplished people have accepted Islam, for e.g. A young cardiologist in our hospital by the name of Dr. Balbir accepted Islam a year back and he wants to convert the whole hospital to Islam. He was called to check up on a patient a few days back, and he said to me that if you want to escape hell after death, then you have to accept Islam. I was reminded of Maulana Sahib after hearing this, all that he had ever said to me came back in a rush of memories. I asked Dr. Reena to introduce me to Dr. Balbir. The next day Dr. Reena called me to inform me that she had invited Dr. Balbir to her office on Sunday at 10:00 am. She asked me to join her in her office so that she can introduce me to him. On Sunday i went to meet up with Dr. Reena in her office and soon enough Dr. Balbir also joined us over there. He had a very pleasant and introspective personality. I asked him how long ago had he accepted Islam? He replied about eight to nine years back. Then i asked him his reasons for accepting Islam, he replied that only Islam is the true, complete and the most original religious path. That if one doesn't Islam, then there will be no pardon from hell fire after death. Without Shahada, one will be doomed for eternity to hell fire. He said that even for you it is important to accept Islam if you don't want eternal damnation. I asked him if he had taken a Muslim name after his conversion, he said that he had taken up the name Waliullah, which means the friend of Allah. I told him that about one and a half years ago, a Maulana Sahib had come to my ward and that he had some things to me that at that time had had a profound effect upon me, the Maulana Sahib had been praying for all the children in the ward and had been blowing on them. When i asked him who his relative was in the ward, he had replied that all of them were his relatives and we have all descended from the same parents, Adam and Eve. Dr. Balbir said that whatever Maulana Sahib said is the truth and that RasoolAllah Mohammed (PBUH) had said all this in his final sermon. He also told me that i can get a printed copy of that sermon and that all that the Prophet has ever said has been saved and can be found in a printed form, that i will send whatever i can find to you through Dr. Reena. 

     After three or four days Dr. Reena sent me the pamphlet promised me by Dr. Balbir. Our Prophet Mohammed (PBUH)'s final sermon was printed in English on that pamphlet. I was quite taken aback after reading it, specially the part regarding the treatment of women. It really touched the depths of my heart. Again i was reminded of Maulana Sahib and thought that it would have been better had i taken his address. In the hospital i searched the files of old patients for the address of the one that had come from Panipat so that i could go to him myself and ask about Maulana Sahib's whereabouts. But unfortunately, i could not locate him no matter how hard i tried. Suddenly, i was overcome with an overwhelming urge to find out and learn about Islam. I took Dr. Balbir's phone number and set up an appointment to meet up with him at Safdar Jung Hospital. Upon meeting him i requested him for more literature on Islam. The next day he came to the hospital where i worked and gave me a slim book by the name of, "Entrusted to you, in your service" in Hindi and told me that if you want to know about Islam then this book is the best way to go about it initially. He said that this little book is worth a thousand words. You only have to read it with the mindset that a true sympathizer has written it with your best interests at heart. If you read it like this, you will feel that you have accepted Islam at the hand of this author in person. 

     Dr. Balbir told me that he came from a Rajput family that belonged  to a village in the suburbs of Delhi. Soon Dr. Balbir took his leave and i read that book cover to cover in one go whilst sitting in the ward. After reading the book i started missing Maulana Sahib. The book had left a deep impact on my heart and soul. After reading the book, i called up Dr. Balbir and requested him for more books written by the same author. I also requested him that would be indebted to him if he could take me to meet up with the author. 

     It was 18th May after four days. Dr. Balbir called me and told me that he could introduce me to the author of the book in the Green Park Masjid if i could take off from work for a short while. I immediately jumped and grasped this opportunity. A short while later we reached the Green Park Masjid by an auto rickshaw. Maulana Sahib had reached the Masjid early that day as he had to travel further ahead. When i saw Maulana Sahib, I could not contain my happiness and excitement as the person who had come to my ward and left such an impact on my heart and soul and the author whose book had left an indelible mark on me were one and the same. I had been searching for him for the past one and half years, and here he was right in front of me. I fell at his feet, but Maulana Sahib forbade me there and then never to do that again. He said to me that what is stopping you from accepting Islam now? I told Maulana Sahib, that I had come primarily to meet up with him and to accept Islam at his hands. Maulana Sahib was ecstatic at this news and Immediately made me take my Shahadah. He also renamed me as Safia Shalini. Maulana Sahib gave me names of more books for consultation on Islam and requested me to learn and pray Salaat with regularity. 

Asma: So didn't you announce your conversion to Islam after accepting it?

Dr. Safia: Maulana Sahib very strictly had told me not to announce my conversion publicly, but still i told a few important people in my life. Sometimes i feel with passion that when i am on the right path, why should i hide my acceptance of Islam? Then the thought crosses my mind that when i have been lucky enough to find Islam at the behest of Maulana Sahib then i should obey what he says and tells me to do.

Asma: Did you tell you friend Dr. Reena?

Dr. Safia: Not only did i tell her, I also with the help of Dr. Waliullah helped her accept Islam. But because of the fact that she is married and her husband Dr. B.K. Sehgal is very religious and has joined the Radha Swami Sat Sang. That is why Dr. Reena went off to Dubai.

Asma: Are you in touch with Dr. Waliullah?

Dr. Safia: Actually, Dr. Waliullah himself contracted heart disease. His heart because of this gradually became weaker and weaker. He eventually had to get a pacemaker installed in his heart. because of his disease he kept in touch with me. I took a lot of interest in  helping him overcome his disease. He got married to a girl who had a government job. He had already told her before he married her that he had accepted Islam and that she will first have to revert and then get a nikah done according to Islamic rites. He made her take the Shahadah and then he did nikah with her. But even after all this that girl did not take much interest in Islam, partially due to the fact that she had a government job that was not conducive to her adopted religion and partly because of the fact that she was not mentally ready to take this huge plunge in an absolutely different lifestyle. It was this fact that took a toll on Dr. Balbir's health and the stress caused him to contract heart disease. When the Western did no help him, he turned to alternative therapy at the behest of Maulana Kaleem. With the grace of God, he soon recuperated and became a lot better. 

     Maulana Sahib advised him to try and find a job in the Middle East and to take his wife along with him. Alhamdolillah! he found a job in Saudia Arabia and last month his wife also joined him there. Because of his departure to Saudi Arabia i have become very lonely , as i have lost a friend who understood my predicament. Dr. Reena, who was named Fatima on your dad's advice, her husband was being worked upon by Dr. Balbir. But now after his departure even that has stopped. 

Asma: Do your parents know about your acceptance of Islam? 

Dr. Safia: Yes, my parents know about my acceptance of Islam. They did not like my decision at all and were against it from the get go. But slowly and steadily they have grudgingly come to accept it. 


Asma: Have you gotten married

Dr. Safia: My parents had been very concerned about my marriage. Many good proposals came my way, most of them were my father's students but maybe Allah had not wanted that for me so none of them went anywhere. I used to excuse myself saying that i have to complete my postgraduate medical education. I asked Maulana Sahib countless times if i could announce my reversion to Islam, but he held me back, saying that you try and work on your parents so that they accept Islam. When i told him how difficult it was for me to pray and fast, he advised me to find employment in the Middle East. He also called up Dr. Waliullah and told him to look for a job for me over there. Alhamdolillah! i soon found employment at King Abdul Aziz Hospital and i got leave from my job in India for two years.  
     Dear sister Asma, it might amuse you to know that I got married to the man who had previously proposed for your hand in marriage. You must remember that a surgeon from Chandigarh had asked for your hand in marriage. He was the only bearded, Muslim surgeon on the history of that hospital. But you got married to someone from Aligarh.  Maulana Sahib once asked me if i was interested in getting married to this gentleman as  we were in the same profession. I agreed and gave him the go ahead. Maulana Sahib then introduced me to Dr. Asad and his parents. We were all quite content with each other after the meeting. Maulana Sahib arranged for Dr. Asad and my nikah immediately. Wonder of wonders, even Dr. Asad got employment at King Abdul Aziz Hospital as he had also applied for a job over there. He left for Jeddah on 6th December, i am still waiting for my visa. I hope i get it soon so that i can do Hajj this year only.

Asma: Didn't you feel strange marrying a bearded Muslim?

Dr Safia: Alhamdolillah! absolutely not! By the grace of Allah, i love Islam from the depths of my heart. To be quite honest, Islam is according to my nature. When i heard that Dr. Asad is the first bearded, sherwani wearing Muslim in the history of the hospital, i wanted to immediately announce my acceptance of Islam and start wearing an abaya and niqab to become the first Islamically covered lady doctor at All India Institute of Medical Science, but even though Maulana Sahib encouraged me he requested me to spend two to four years in Saudia. 

Asma: You got married without your parents consent, so weren't they a little upset at that?

Dr. Safia: My nikah was very sudden, but when Maulana Kaleem Sahib introduced the boy to my parents and told them that he and Shalini are married and that  he isn't demanding a cent in dowry or for that matter even a ring, they were very pleased. Plus he told them that first both of us will leave for Saudia and after they have been residing there for some time, you can tell all your relatives that she has met someone over there and gotten married to that person, then they will not feel so bad, my parents acquiesced. When my parents saw Dr. Asad, then their happiness knew no bounds. My father kept on saying to me off and on that Shalini, you are an extremely lucky girl to have found such an accomplished and good looking life partner, and it is true that Dr. Asad is way better looking as compared to me. My dad even went to the airport to see his new son in law off to Saudia. 

Asma: Truly, you are very lucky that Allah made this match for you himself, Alhamdolillah!

Dr. Safia: Without a doubt, Allah has been very gracious and kind to me. Whenever i think about it, i am overwhelmed with Allah's bounty and i want to fall down in front of him in sujood. I was lost in the darkness of kuffar and shirk and He held my hand and guided me towards this light! 

Asma: Didn't you invite your parents to Islam?

Dr. Safia: Thanks to Allah that slowly and steadily i am working towards it and they are quite close to accepting my invited to Islam. 

Asma: Would you like to give any message to your Muslim brethren through Armughan

Dr. Safia: I feel from the depths of my heart that this world which is rich in science and technology, only needs Islam as without Islam it is absolutely devoid of any wealth or riches. Sister Asma, it is my belief that only Islam can make this world worth living. Without Islam this world is worthless. I am surprised that even though Muslims hold the key to the greatest treasure in this universe, yet they are suffering from a low self esteem. Why? i ask. We should be grateful to Allah and we should have pity of this worthless world. We should consider ourselves the luckiest creature to be having the wealth of Eiman in our lives. 

Asma: Thanks a lot Dr. Safia, Assalaam o alaikum, fee aman Allah! 

Dr. Safia: Thanks to you Asma, Waalaikum assalaam w Rehmat Ullah e Wa barakaatohoo!


 

      
      


1 comment:

  1. Dr shalini is my sister,I remember her in my prayers

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